Saturday, February 6, 2010

realisation

The lovely Kate posted this week with her experience of bonding with her girls who were born premmie and will health challenges to overcome.

It kind of tied into thoughts that have been floating in my mind about the differences I have felt in bonding with Owen and Audrey and crystalised something for me.  Like others report, I don't feel guilty or upset per se, in many ways I deel detached from my observations.  The largest emotional feeling I can put to it is "crap". Like it would have just been easier to have the same rush of mother love for both of them and not have to dwell at all.

So instantly I want to start listing the reasons why I think it may have been different but honestly, this is not the point. 

The point it, that in the last few weeks Owen has been unfurling his little toddler personality, and I am so enamoured with it, and it's happening pretty much precisely at the time that Audrey began to unfurl hers, and our relationship started to get complicated where before it was simple.


As he headed towards toddlerdom I started lamenting I'd wanted a baby not a toddler and I hadn't got my baby's worth out of him yet.  What a lovely surprise to consider, to be open to the idea, that these might be our glory days :)

Friday, February 5, 2010

last night

We somehow got onto the conversation of religion.  Steve starts ranting about fairy tales etc and then the conversation goes like this

"So don't you believe in an after life at all?" asks I
"yes I do. once you die, that's after your life! That's the after life, you're dead but everyone else isn't"

we have a chucklebelly and then I ask "so what about past lives, i think they're been some credible account, do you believe in them?"

And he says no but he believes in half lives LOL

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

golden syrup dumplings




I must admit I have a soft spot for daggy aussie food.  My SuperSIL brought a lot of these foods into my repertoire, and she cooks them a lot better than me - chowmein, curried sausages, while I rock the apricot chicken LOL

So we had golden syrup dumplings for breakfast because I craved something sweet last night, had nothing, thought of gsd, and was too lazy to make the.  There's no bread for my daily toast due to Steve eating it last night, so was a perfect storm for making such a rich dessert for breakkie lol

sauce 1 1/3 water, 1/3 gsyrup, 3/4 brown sugar, 30g butter/marg
dumplings 1 1/4 sr flour, 30g butter, 1/3 milk, 1/3 gsyrup.

method
  • put the sauce ingredients in a pot on a stove and set to low while yyou make the dumplings
  • rub the butter into the flour, add milk and gsyrup, mix it up :)
  • once the sauce is simmering, take two spoons and plop as even as possible size dumplings into the sauce. will look disastrous but have faith.
  • simmer with the lid on for 20 mins.
  • serve with cream or icecream :)

Sunday, January 10, 2010

New tricks

He can high 5.

If you ask for a kiss he presents his head.

He says quack for birds.

He can wrangle a sooper dooper like a trooper.

And he's walking more and more everyday yet still looks like a drunk
cowboy.

Monday, January 4, 2010

my 2010 list :)

Ok, so my 2010 list goes like this

20 fun things I wanna do and 10 ways to grow during the year!

20 fun things
  1. get a bike and a bike trailer
  2. go on a double decker bus tour of melbourne
  3. swim in the ocean
  4. host a singstar party
  5. get the backyard toddlerproof
  6. visit eureka skydeck
  7. visit costco
  8. go on our christmas adventure
  9. get a massage
  10. go out for posh afternoon tea
  11. have a ferry ride
  12. go to a festival
  13. have a bbq 
  14. have sunday roast lunch
  15. go to the art gallery alone
  16. go to Luna Park
  17. go to posh movie with Steve
  18. visit Williamstown
  19. visit Southgate
  20. go to the pub with friends
Ok, now 10 ways to grow
  1. Be focused - make a plan, visit the plan often
  2. Make progress - outline baby steps, be accountable about them
  3. Be positive - forsake complaining, control judgement, be gentle
  4. Be a wise steward of our resources - our home, our money, our time
  5. Eat responsibly - for physical and emotional health
  6. Be active - because it feels good
  7. Concentrate - resist distractions
  8. Practise moderation
  9. Connect
  10. Create a 5 year plan
I guess a lot of  observable behaviours will fall into multiple areas - like if I commit to better menu planning, that can help achieve numbers 4 and 5 and 8, and be achieved by focusing and concentrating.

I am going to use google alerts to plan and remind myself.


      Sunday, January 3, 2010

      Learning curve

      Getting away from it all? It's really quite the opposite, when you go
      camping or camper-ing even in a caravan park.

      After going to Mulwala I made some improvements to my packing
      strategy. They were successful so I'll share them. I packed our
      clothes in those cheap plastic zipper bags. It prevents traditional
      luggage getting filthy in the annexe, space is at too high a premium
      in the camper to store a weeks worth of clothes.

      Within them, I packed the kids outfits in ziplock style bags and
      spares, pjs, jackets etc in calico shopping bags. I packed my gear
      into catergories into calico bags. This made finding what I needed a
      whole lot easier in the crowded space. Steve had his mismash cause he
      scoffs at my "Tupperware" lifestyle! Plus he cares less which goes
      with what.

      All dirty laundry went into one of the plastic bags that carried
      bedding up.

      For our hygeine needs I got some nylon baskets from ikea and used an
      inexpensive S hook in the shower. I hate trying to get into a toiletry
      bag all dripping wet, put stuff in it damp etc. These worked a treat.
      I stored them in a plastic basket in a camper cupboard with our
      medicines and stuff we didn't need to take to the shower block.

      We fell into disarray when it came to our towels and bathers. We swam
      the first four days, and while I can keep a towel relatively clean to
      dry and reuse, it's a near impossibility for a child. You need
      somewhere to dry them and somewhere to store them when they aren't
      clean or dirty. Next time only cape/hood style for kids. And it's
      probably worth bringing more than I did, and storing some in the car
      perhaps.

      I also need to give more thought to the food prep/storage. On a last
      minute whim steve bought a fridge and microwave. The microwave got
      used to make bad instant coffee and to cook a chook in a bag (was
      excellent, can recommend). I think for us, a toaster would be a good
      call as an addition. Me and Owen are early risers and if I can prepare
      breakfast for us in the annexe that's nicer for everyone. I am also
      scared of the camper cooking stuff, so I only had toast once. I think
      repetition is the key, variety only for dinner. Prepackaged snacks a
      must, we all seem to dig tiny teddies and dippity bix on hols! No left
      overs on hols, chuck it as the space is more important (beer and diet
      coke take precedence lol).

      A lot of our creature comforts are the result of steve doing/having
      boy stuff like cables and light fixtures and outlets etc.

      Then there are the extras, stuff that turns existing in rather
      downgraded digs into a holiday. The outright toys - beach toys,
      electronics, books, bikes, etc. We took probably twice as much as we
      used. I was judicious for myself, and in the end, the extras didn't
      cause too much grief so no harm.

      The last catergory is the most troublesome. I can see it is where you
      can sink a lot of $ trying to make a "simple" holiday more pleasant.
      Like we ended up buying a shade/fly tent as we were not positioned
      well and obviously prefered to be outside the camper as much as
      possible. It was only $50 but there are a lot of ways to only spend
      $50 that mean you could have stayed in a cabin or hotel somewhere else!

      I was a bit taken aback by the elaborate set ups people seemed to have
      for small kids. But I shortly saw the wisdom in it, should it let the
      parents do what they rightly deserve on their holiday to do - relax!
      Luckily for us, the grass was a very effective baby jail, and he
      stayed in the annexe or on the rug. Next year, a baby playpen outside
      the annexe may be necessary!

      I did take some big baby gear tho, the obligatory ikea highchair, it's
      extremely portable and was very useful. And my darling esmerelda
      (mountain buggy urban) with her various covers. I cannot sing her baby
      sitting praises high enough. She was a trooper on the sand and it was
      quite a natural high to feed or walk him to sleep and leave him
      comfortably sleep for ages on the beach, protected from sun and
      insects. Given that I vowed to have a decent walking stroller pushing
      3y9m Audrey 12kms along the Esplanade from Portarlington to St
      Leonards 3 years ago, it was quite the triumph to have it work out so
      well.

      We are kind of at the crossroads where we decide if we ditch borrowing
      the camper again and opt for cabins only in the future. Unfortunately
      indented head has none and I enjoy my sil's company. Another option
      would be buying a bigger camper and kitting out well. But it's a lot
      of money and a lot of work compared to other options. I think I prefer
      a bit more of an easier time guranteed, cause the balance of effort vs
      return dived when the heavens rained down. Then again, it is a
      learning curve, and Owen will be older next time.

      Sunday, December 27, 2009

      Blogging from indented head

      So it's been a great festive season for our family! The kids have been
      thouroughly spoilt by all and sundry, and had a bang up time with our
      wider families. I am glad Owen is getting more used to larger groups,
      and he just loves my mum and dad, and will give others a go if the
      mood is right. So it hasn't be heaps of hard work to attend events and
      since there were four, that's great!

      Our other traditions are the school and rsl carols, as well as an epic
      trip to the city, seeing our local Christmas lights and baking and
      decorating and a low key Xmas ever dinner with my SIL and BIL and two
      neices. I seem to prefer to document these things now via pictures on
      facebook so won't duplicate here, but it was all lovely and manageable
      and I have truly been in the Xmas spirit :)

      Now after a very long and tiring and tiresome day of preparation and
      packing and unpacking and setting up, I'm in the pop up camper with
      opo snuggled next to me. He barely looks any different to me than when
      we went to Mulwala in April, wearing a jumpsuit, garments we've
      forsaken at home for having too many snaps, but protect little arms
      and legs and tummies from mozzies. I had some of mum's Xmas cake and a
      mince tart for supper, and life is good :)